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I m so depressed and tired of being miserable now, I m a 24 year old person from Indian and don't feel good being alive, I mean I never felt like complete alive and happy in my life ever, Everything in my life was just worse, I was born with unfortunate fate like a curse, I m so tired of being abused by my parents and so I tired of living a dead life in my poor country, I m just counting down my days and numbers, feeling like nothing can ever happen good in my life, and even after all of of these I have so many mental disorders and I m the most below average person in this world, nothing ever achieve anything in my life,
I had a only a desire to live a beautiful life with loving caring people in a better western country like the USA, Canada, Europe, but it is the impossible dream, whenever I see and watch videos other of people like this (https://www.youtube....GkJX-xtA/videos) from my country and others living there so beautiful life with so loving and caring people I feel so emotional and a desperate deadly desire to have it triggers in my heart every single day of time but it is impossible for me to ever achieve it because of my life, I don't even have supportive loving parents,
I also want some loving caucasian people in my life and want to live with them in their beautiful countries, and want to eat food with them, travel, fun and want to spend every moment of life with them too, so many things, and want to see the beautiful rays of sunshine for the first time in my life, and I also want to share my beautiful moments online, I never had anything moment in my life, only a few people get the opportunity in this world. there is no one to talk in my life, I m soo alone and nobody cares about me not even my own parents, everybody wants me dead,
I just like to share my dead down hearted feelings online to random people because I want to let it all out, I don't know if there is a God or not in this universe but I still pray to him every night, I m so depressed, I wish I had supportive parents who could support me for my dream but my parents are just very worse and they don't even care if I die or live, I also so tired of my mental disorders and depression, I feel so restless, and depressed, sometimes I feel like death will bring peace at least.
