thank

At LEAST 12 weeds. 

doing nothing with my life.

it's a really long, ongoing mistake.

Shocking, truly. 

I needed a Hulu account to use, because my friend stopped paying for hers and the excessive ads on crunchyroll were gonna drive me nuts.

Stayed because I need social interaction, and I recently got myself chased off a forum full of sjw's.

Nope, didn't bring back the dead or anything! 

Mmm, still grieving over my dead ex, and not being able to maintain a new relationship. So, basically loneliness. 

I think it was Doom? The original one. 

Ill teach you the ways of the force. Don't join the dark side. I will mold you into my pupil. 

Discord Yoda#5009

No offense, but I don't feel comfortable messaging people off of this forum on discord. Or offsite at all, actually. 

First off, this is nonsense, as people always need a graphic designer to make logos/banners and such all over the internet. Second, if you can type this post, then you can start cracking accounts with programs such as openbullet. Get a simple hulu or spotify config, plug it into openbullet with a free combolist, get some hits, and put those hits onto nulled! Easy.

1) How likely is it for me to get into legal trouble doing that sort of thing? (The account cracking)
2) Where can I get it explained like I'm 5?

3) Graphic design is not the same as digital art. Graphic design leans more, from what I understand, towards creating images with flattering text and the like, where digital art for me is just digitally painting things with no words involved. I'd be absolutely garbage at making advertising banners or logos and the such because that's not an area I work with. 

I have absolutely no idea how to get account logins n such, how to program, etc etc. Frankly, if I knew how to do those things myself, I wouldn't have found this forum.

The only skill I really have is digital art, which of course isn't relevant to the forum at all. 
Edit: I forgot to mention, I'm also decent at editing other peoples artwork, logo/signature removal and such by painting over and matching the style. Not sure if that'd have a use, I mostly just do it for my friends for their wallpapers n such.  

Is there anything I (someone with no skills or resources) can do, or am I just not welcome here?

Y'know, I used to lean winter heavily. But the past couple years, I've swapped to team summer. 

I'm absolutely sick of numb fingers and dry, icy air. 

A couple hours. In middle school, some dude I was sorta friends with kept pestering me to go out with him, so at some point I gave him my email to contact me. He then told everyone he could that I was his "girlfriend" when we hadn't even been on a date or hung out or anythin, so I ditched him. 

Any teens here, don't be like that guy. 

If this is you tryna fix your leecher value, this isn't how ya do it. 

Just make friends that you keep at an arms length? Trust isn't an issue if you're not offering them information they can harm you with, and many friends are just fine only knowing you at a surface level. 

ive waited 12 yrs already, hence why i believe that the "it gets better" line is utter BS

Aye, I tried therapy several months ago n even that seemed like complete BS to me. Dude said I couldn't be helped because I didn't "want to change", but didn't give me any ideas on how I could learn to want better things.

Gotta keep in mind that mental health is still in the dark ages, therapy is more of an art than a science, and different things work for different people.

Where one person may be able to just do what they like n feel better in time, others may have to take large steps to completely scrape clean their personality n start all over-- which doesn't sound easy, and certainly isn't easy to do.

I'd say it's all about mindset. I'm cynical and introverted n selfish, I'm glad to be left alone unless someone's kissin my ass, and I don't feel any desire to change my ways and become a 'good hearted loving person' as society would expect me to be. But my focus, now, has been on exploring why I feel the way I do, and where that perceptions of my thoughts is comin from. Asking friends and family how they feel in certain situations to understand how other perspectives work. Gotta do your homework.

I've been depressed since I was... shit, like 11 years old? It's been a while for me too. Waiting for things to change absolutely hasn't made anything better, n in fact my self neglect has further damaged my psyche and place in life. 

TLDR if waiting for time to do a magic cure all doesn't solve shit, you got your work cut out for ya, but it doesn't mean change is impossible so keep yer chin up. 

 

you sure about that?

If you're tellin yourself it'll never be better, then you're setting yourself up for a self-fulfilling prophecy of failure. CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) is one of the most common therapy techniques, I think, for depression. Essentially it's teachin yourself to let go of negative thoughts and perceptions, n look at things in a more positive (or at least a hopefully objective) manner. Instead of thinkin "I hate my life, I wanna die", for example, you'd wanna correct to somethin like "I'm not feeling good for the time being and I'm not fully enjoying life, but maybe it'll be better tomorrow". 

But then again, I ghosted my therapist, so what do I know? All I remember is him tellin me to come up with "creative solutions" to my issues (whatever that means) and sayin I shouldn't erect walls that needlessly prevent me from gettin better. 

I'm not a terribly strong willed person n much too disgusted by the world, personally, to actually make steps towards recovery just because of my own warped perception of the world around me. That's not the case for most though. 

In my entirely-not-an-expert opinion, you gotta think about what you normally do, accept that it ain't workin whether you're judging thoughts or actions, and carve out new paths for yourself. Try new things, pick up new hobbies, try and look at everything from a shifted POV compared to your usual. 
 

Or, as others (I think) said, see a therapist who can give ya better advice.